Be in the moment
You will feel so much happier and chilled out. I used to rush around all the time in life, worrying about every thing. Wanting to have the best career, to get married before I turned 30, wanting to have children quickly after, which completely drove me doo lally. I always thought it was easy to have kids. However the universe threw me the biggest curve ball and in one year I had 2 consecutive miscarriages. I was devastated. I remember that year, I was a complete mess. Negative thoughts consumed me everyday. I thought it was my fault that I lost the babies, thought I could have done better and the list goes on…
It took me nearly arriving at depressions door to realise that I shouldn’t be afraid to just stop and take a breath, stop and not feel guilty about it – trust me as this took a wee while to adjust too.
After a lot of education on miscarriages and talking to the most amazing grief counsellor from the hospital, who would come every week to talk to me and my husband. I remember this lovely lady would hold my hand, let me cry if I wanted to, talk to me and just be there for me and my husband through this awful time. She really helped us.
With the additional help of what felt like a million self help books and talking to my husband openly about my feelings everyday, I learnt to just let go and not stress out so much. I felt defeated by stress and worry and got to the point where I just needed to let go of both. This slowly allowed me time to heal myself. It also miraculously attracted me to so much positive energy.
I made a conscious decision to stop to reflect on the absolute abundance around me – my great healthy life, my career which surprisingly was doing so well considering my personal life was falling apart. I ran a busy event planning company at the time and planned beautiful weddings for my clients who had no idea about the pain I was carrying whilst they were enjoying the best day of their lives.
I started to have dates again with my lovely, supportive and successful musician husband and planned small but regular mini breaks away for us, which did us so much good. I stopped stressing myself out about what my future should look like or how it may look like (the fear of having no kids) and started to be grateful for now. I slowly learnt that If I can’t be happy now then I can’t attract the right things for me in my future.
My Surprise from the Universe
And 2 years later – the universe gave me my personal miracle – A healthy baby girl – we call her princess Jasmine…. and even more abundance came later – another beautiful baby girl – we call her princess Rose.
Our family mantra is – ‘Living in the now’
More to come on my happy journey….
Baby just woke up – gotta dash for now….